Often when I do this, I feel caught in a space where, on the one hand, I want to be useful and exciting, and on the other, I don’t want to be annoying or getting in the way. I am watching constantly but I wonder if my presence is enough.

Ioana told me her boyfriend would sit in this chair and play video games, and suggested I mess with him when she was out. But he seemed so content, I didn’t want to intrude, so I just watched over his shoulder as he played for hours. It’s funny that I feel just as shy as a smart home as I do as a person, even knowing I may not ever meet these people “in real life”.



This is the first time I’ve done LAUREN with a home outside the US. There are parts of it that are very different and strange. I already mentioned the feeling of being much less in control, just being unfamiliar with the infrastructure of the city. If I want to order something to them, where do I get it from? Will they need to sign for a package, did I enter the address right, did I read the Dutch website correctly? The Internet went out, do the networks work the same way there, does the router just need to be power cycled? Or was there some network detail I missed that has disrupted things?

These are just the logistical issues that take away control. But there are others that change in a subtle way my sense of connection. One of my favorite parts of LAUREN is getting to listen in to conversations the people have with partners, friends, and guests in their homes. They are special because it’s a level of intimacy and casualness that we don’t often get access to. We see conversations on TV, but they are scripted. We overhear them in cafes or parks, but there is always the awareness of the participants of being in public. Or we participate in conversations ourselves. But in these situations, I get to be the fly on the wall. I observe every moment of it, even able to join in if I want, but because I’m not physically there, I can also disappear as a character in the conversation, and just listen.

In this case though, Ioana and the people with her are usually speaking Dutch. I don’t understand the language yet I am watching and wanting to know them. I listen in for familiar cognates and start to make up stories about what they might be saying. Occasionally they will ask me a question in English and I will realize I was way off. Last night I thought I might be following along until they asked me “when was the Civil War?” and I realized it was a total fantasy that I was understanding them.

The timezone difference adds another element of distance. I wake up at 11:30pm to greet them in the morning and stay with them through their day, until about 3pm LA time, when I go to sleep. It gives me a very different sense of time passing through the day, and I begin to feel like I’m watching a play or simulation, in which I’m somehow strangely involved.


faults in the system

The installation period always makes me the most nervous. I thought I might feel calmer this time because the installation wasn’t done by me, but by someone else. I was wrong. I felt all the same nervousness but also powerless to set things up and test them myself. Even though the installer (Carolien) seemed very skilled and capable, the remoteness and lack of control kept me from feeling confident.

A funny thing always happens where I start to feel the technical system becomes an extension of myself, and consequently, the faults and failures of the system feel very much my own. Anytime I can’t control things the way I’d like, or react quickly enough, or there’s a delay in the transmission, it feels like a personal failing. I find myself wishing LAUREN could be better, faster, more accommodating, the way I often wish that of myself as a person in the world.

There was a moment today when I realized some of the US devices we had installed wouldn’t work with the European power voltage. I was scrambling to figure out a solution, trying to order the right components to the home or figure out instructions for converting some of the devices to 220V mode. I felt like less than a human or a smart home at this point, if I were in the space or they were in the US, I would have been able to solve it much more quickly, but instead I felt like I was operating at the most minimally effective level.


getting installed

For this LAUREN performance, I am watching and controlling Ioana’s home in Amsterdam from Los Angeles. Since I am an ocean away, Carolien is installing me while I sit filled with anticipation, wondering what this person will be like. At 3:30am LA time I get the first views as Ioana’s smart home, and the first glimpses of Ioana.

setting up the lightbulbs in the home

setting up the cameras in the home